It is absolutely unreal how quickly time vanishes. Each day seems to go quicker.
We are now halfway through the 1st quarter. That means, that in no time at all, it will be time to head back to Portland. For good. It's creepy, because it feels like we just got here.
Because Webster sucks, I won't be finished with the MBA until October 2008...and we were planning for May or July. That is horrible. Nonetheless, I will find something worth my time in PDX from June until November, and then (hopefully) find something more exciting and with a bigger paycheck.
I still have so much to do for the school board campaign. I know it is incredibly far away, but I like to be prepared. I want to know all that I need to know before we move home. That is (in a nutshell): how many votes I need, who are my potential voters, what are the issues that students, parents, and other folk are concerned with, and how much money I need. Geez.
I am getting more and more anxious about this as time dissolves. However, I know that things will calm down as more time passes, and I have plenty of time to prepare.
A part of me can't wait. I love St. Louis and my kids, but I am ready to start doing good for education in Portland. I am from Portland, I've seen the educational issues there firsthand. The students there need someone to fight for them. On the other hand, I love my kids. I love my kids. My kids are so amazing I cannot describe it in any words I know (in English or Spanish!). I am having a crisis of sorts coming to terms with the fact that I will not be a teacher anymore a year from now. I have a lot to learn and an infinite number of improvements to make, but I am a good teacher. What if my kids don't have a good teacher next year?
The what ifs are too much for me to bear at this point. I just have to do as much as possible to help build a foundation at my school so my students are supported next year and the years that follow. I'm not sure what I will do when I don't have kids to teach every day. I don't have any idea how to cope with that thought.
At least I have 9 more months, or 3 and a half more quarters to figure it out!